《好先生》观后

最近看了一个电视剧《好先生》，本来没抱着太大的期望 -- 况且还是42集 -- 但是怎么越看越爱啊。结果一个礼拜内竟然看完了哈哈（我就不写我平均几点睡了。。现在早上7点了lol）

《好先生》是一个都市情感片，说一名厨师，陆远，在美国的生活。本来走上幸福成功的日子，却因为经济差没工作，欠债。为了钱做坏事的时候被逮捕，坐牢。出来后，一波未完另一波又起，结果没味觉，没女朋友，没前途。然而就自暴自弃，过着行尸走肉的日子，晚晚喝醉酒在赌场过夜。有个兄弟每天有义气地收留他，却因为一场车祸去世。为了这个兄弟的后事而回国后，路远在那里因为种种事情学习成长。

其实重点不在plot，反正情感戏来来去去差不多，但是这个戏对很多在爱情，友情，和亲情上深入地探讨很多问题。这个就是我还没睡觉来写这个的目的。

              ----人生路（陆）远，把以前的人事忘得干（甘）净（敬），才可以迎接将（江）来（莱）----

人的成长
成长的过程，需要的是时间，需要的是经历。剧情里给了三个阶段的成长期：1. 青少年期：对于事情不顾得大局面，只为自己觉得对的事考虑而认清事实而做出冷静的分析。2. 成年人期：虽然顾得大局面，但还是有时候的冲动。虽然有着自己的判断，但也有时候反而因为自己的尊严和执着搞出事情。3. 老人期：见过世面的 “老太太”，看破了不说，儿子死了也看淡，清楚知道这世界上最重要的东西。

关于恩与爱

Mid-year mid-life crisis

What was supposed to be a relaxing and happy holiday in Europe ended up as a miserable experience of receiving the news that she passed away on a gloomy Thursday morning. She was someone whom I could never communicate with/to, having language barriers. Yet, she was someone who had great importance in my life - greater than most, and I, would imagine.

I was starting to get to know the world; she was starting to forget bits and pieces of the world.
I was struggling to form coherent sentences; she was struggling to still form coherent sentences.
I was at the start of my race; she was nearing the end.
I was growing up; she was growing old.
Through her, I see the end.

She was the reason my father and his seven siblings can gather in the first place, and she was also the reason of the rare, complete attendance of all seven siblings, who hailed from different countries and continents - not to mention the grandchildren and grand-grandchildren. She was the reason her children still occasionally meet up despite conflicts that would otherwise set them apart. She might be close to losing her senses, she might be senile, but she was leader of the family, as none other than the leader of the pack can bring the pack together.

Heregoes another spiral towards darkness, I lost my bearings in this lifeless world.
It's a world with too much suffering, too much pain, and too much regrets.
It's a world with meaningless rewards towards pointless endeavors.
Because, really, when you start forgetting who you are and who you love when you start hearing the sound of the bells from afterlife, what stays?

您可能看不懂也听不懂我说什么，但是我这一份思念和不舍是专属留给您的。至少，您离开了缠身的疾病，累人的勾心斗角，伤心的世界。无法抚平的心情和泪腺之中还是参杂了为您感到心安的平静。安心上路吧婆婆

黑夜问白天

有时候
很想就这样昏去
逃离人间

哪怕是一个月，一年，十年
醒了就知道，还有谁会在我身旁
其实，不醒也不差吧？

Life Goes On

Been looking at my past posts and realized...

I'm so pattern omg LOL using all dem English words that I never used irl

(or maybe my english now is just shit?)

Anyways,

That's not the point.

My most tormenting 3-hour paper marked the end of my uni last Friday. Then it was celebration, parties...t'was fun and all but I know deep inside there's a melancholic side of me just waiting to come out. 

Another checkpoint in life, where friends depart, where new life begins, and where all good things come to an end - or at least take a change. There's always hope that more exiciting and fruitful things will be in store for me in the future, but damn, every time is still not easy to get through. 难得在我的大学生涯找到了归属感，但来不及珍惜就已经要面对分离

I don't know how things are going to be in the future, though I'm still technically studying postgrad. I see the road ahead -- it looks familiar, but somehow it's different. Idk. I'm afraid

《这样的距离刚刚好》

本人真的不擅长用文字表达自己，但看了这本书（和那本回忆册xD）过后也很想写些东西。所谓的童年无忌的日子，这个故事形容得再贴切不过了吧？

Reading a story about myself is really weird, and it being a love story doesn't help things. I'm not gonna have a great time with my friends who read this book HAHAHA. But it's a story that brings back so many warm memories kept deep in the synapses of my memory locker. And from 大明星Siaosparrow?!?!?! It's worth xD

My dad calls it immature puppy love story; my friend says it's a story of regret; tbh regardless of whatever we did, I'm grateful. Grateful that I have been a part of your life. Grateful that our story is one that could touch many young hearts. Grateful that I was the one.

In the end, she really went to Singapore. And in the end, I went to Melbourne.
In the end, she found herself a boyfriend. And in the end, I wanted to have a break from love life.
In the end, time has brought its accomplice, change, to shatter the beautiful picture painted by us.
I could always painstakingly piece them back together, however, it won't have its former glamour and magic again. Therefore keep the fragments of memories - whether as a reminder or an inspiration, whether to cry over or to laugh about - to make sure we always focus on our current picture.

人生就像一列火车，路途上会有很多站口，你会看到来来往往，上上下下的人。如果幸运，有些人会陪你做过一段很长的路程，也会有上了一战就下车的人。不管是谁，当别人下车的时候，即使不舍，也该心存感激，然后挥手道别。

我才没有那么潇洒跟你挥手。。。我都还没下车xD

"那一年太多的回忆；
那一年太多的可惜；
星空下的约定；
如此清晰最后还是各奔东西。“

无论你以后在哪里，离我多远，我都永远会支持你。谢谢你曾经和我一起拥有的时光，期待你下一本幸福的旅程<3

Random post

The proof that you're old: I can use phrases like "during my time" and "this used to be a thing".

Memories are really, really precious. Maybe I realized this way later than other people would. They won't stay there unlike diamonds, they are priceless unlike material stuff (and money), they are unique to the time and place and person unlike the love of your life (well it's debatable but in general nope).

Pictures, voice recordings, conversations and chats - they are all frozen pieces of the past,  but yet so real and tangible because those frozen pieces are magically encrypted with emotions. Having conflicting emotions are usually not usual and weird(cuz being happy and sad at the same time means you have mental disorder xD) but yet smiling and crying while opening the memory chest can be natural and normal.

Whether it hurts or warms, the allure of memories is like the songs of sirens. That little part of you in your heart wants to hold on to this feeling - a feeling that is no longer present but yet lingers in the air. Once everything gets into perspective, horrors or traumas of the past are the DNA of your current identity; fun times are the hope and light exhibited in your current identity too.

Well then the question of the day is: what's this perspective?

Encouragements :)

Praying and was told by the Spirit that someone out there might wanna hear this encouragement wooo. I might or might not know you personally (ehem TAS) but I hope this encourages you!

I have (sorta composed) a song in my mind. It's about gentleness and unconditional love towards someone. Don't judge yourself too harshly! Because you are much more worthy than what you think you are and you deserve to be unconditionally loved and you have gentleness in your heart. So activate that perfect side of yourself and show yourself to others your true worth!

Romans 8:36-39(NIV):
³⁶As it is written:

“For your sake we face death all day long;
    we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”

³⁷ No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. ³⁸ For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, ³⁹ neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Read it as a poem and yeah...hope you, that someone, will feel that this resonates within you and make your day :D