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SO FRUSTRATED.
SO DISAPPOINTED.
SO HOPELESS.
NOTHING I CAN DO TO SAVE SOMETHING.

feel like run away from something. I can you know, it's just that I know very well that if I run away from it the problem still goes unsolved and one day, this problem amplifies and BOOM, like a heart attack, everything happens so sudden that everything is gone because of that stubborn problem which refuses to go away.

有听过吗？
有些路总是要自己走。。
这条路就是专属于自己的命运。。
哎怎么自己命运那么差，路那么难走？

If miracle happens, if problems can be solved, if there is if, glory to the everlasting Father.

New Year. New Start.

As it turned out, I was posted to St. Joseph.
This news really shook me hard, 'cause everyone was posted to other JCs, and most of them were their choice.
But I'm not.
Initially I was so damn depressed and just wanted to be alone forever :(( The day when all my friends were packing their stuff to move on to another place while I was going, and am going, to continue stay in this place. Here it's like the same old place, but all the people who had shared memories with me weren't here any more and this feeling was unbearable. I'm so gonna cry all nightTT

Next day I woke up, with my still swollen eyes, I dragged myself to school and just shutting out from everyone in this universe.
It's my first orientation, and guess what? It was really fun and suddenly I felt that maybe I can live with this for the next two years. Because most people in SJI were not from my school, and even they were they didn't know me.

So I'm having a whole new life! Different classmates, different teachers, different faces, and of course different experiences. I don't know whether life is going to be tough in the future, but who cares as long as you can live with it?

Fingers laced, knees on the floor, eyes fixed to the sky.
Pray for a happy and fruitful 2 years life.(heheh trying to imitate some artistic poem style but obviously fail=.=)