Scared

I'm changing.
Ever since I have come to Singapore, I know that I will change, yet I'm starting to get worried of myself.
I know that anyone has to be practical and critical enough to continuously improve yourself so that you will not be selected out in this society. When I contemplate about how I have adopted to my hectic life, I start to understand why people say that Malaysians are very friendly and nice.
Maybe is just because of their pure sincerity that makes Malaysia such an attractive place.
Am I too unfeeling? Am I getting selfish? Or is it just me worrying too much.
I'm not saying that people here are cold-blooded, perhaps it is just me starting to go into the wrong direction. I want to go back, I want to become myself again, I desire the "myself" before I was her, I want to recover, I don't want to be those egocentric people that I have once cursed and hated.
It's gonna be over soon- 2 months time. Let me be myself again please.

Back to school

Tomorrow back to school again:/ feel like giving up \o.o/*flip-table

Maybe too many this Hari Raya holidays was nothing much you, but to me it really was the ONLY holiday for me this year when I really can somewhat relax at home. This bus trip back Singapore really made me realized that how I, or maybe we, always took things for granted. Heavy feelings haih. Eventually I finally got into a troubled sleep. I was really unsatisfied, why, why was my holiday so short, so short that I didn't have enough time to see everyone I wanted to see yet TwT

我竟然。。。错过了距离5分钟的机会