Scared

I'm changing.
Ever since I have come to Singapore, I know that I will change, yet I'm starting to get worried of myself.
I know that anyone has to be practical and critical enough to continuously improve yourself so that you will not be selected out in this society. When I contemplate about how I have adopted to my hectic life, I start to understand why people say that Malaysians are very friendly and nice.
Maybe is just because of their pure sincerity that makes Malaysia such an attractive place.
Am I too unfeeling? Am I getting selfish? Or is it just me worrying too much.
I'm not saying that people here are cold-blooded, perhaps it is just me starting to go into the wrong direction. I want to go back, I want to become myself again, I desire the "myself" before I was her, I want to recover, I don't want to be those egocentric people that I have once cursed and hated.
It's gonna be over soon- 2 months time. Let me be myself again please.